If from where your standing, you can see the sky above...

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 15:51:01 GMT

so i feel really powerful right now. cause i totally am working in the photolab at target, and when you open the start menu you can't play games or use the internet. and guess who just figured out how to access the internet? i did. go me. :D so i'm totally on facebook and livejournal at work. and people think i'm just really super busy on the computer. cause i look so serious. and i am just that freaking awesome.

omg i wanna jump up and down screaming how awesome i am.

of course target is probably watching me and is gonna fire me for my awesomeness. haha.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 00:25:24 GMT

So I was on facebook looking at Mark's page and reading all the bumper stickers he sent to his new gf and it made me cry. The whole time he was with me he never said anything like that. I feel so used and hurt.

I'm so tired.

Of working.
Of being a mother.
Of having to be everything.

And for the first time in quite a few months, I'm crying. And not just for one thing.

I'm crying for Mark. For everyone calling me weird all the time. For my mom not trusting me. For every possible way I've skrewed up my life. For having so many stupid medical bills that I have to work all the time. For everything.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Tue, 22 Sep 2009 14:16:03 GMT

So the post I was going to write was really sad, and after I wrote it I decided it made me sound like a really dumb girl. So then I was going to write something else but I forgot.

And Vampire Academy is a really good book series. <3 Dimitri. Made me sad that he didn't tell Rose he loved her, just that he wanted her. Oh why did you have to loose your humanity Dimitri?! Can't wait for Book 5.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 18:00:59 GMT

I really believe I'm turning into a stalker. Mark just makes me so mad. Idiot. How can he continue with life as if nothing happened while I am stuck dealing with all of these problems and expenses. Jerk. Him and all his skanky hoe's he skrewed behind my back.

Yesterday was nice though. Went to King's Dominion with Kenny and then went back to his house, took a nap, and layed out on the trampoline for a few hours watching the clouds and the sunset. His fam is pretty strange though. His mom knows everything about my dad's side of the fam, and his dad never has a shirt on... and his sister hasn't said one flipping word to me, even after I said hello. And everyone is fat, cept Kenny. I mean, I know I'm not skinny, and I'm not judging, but all they do is sit and eat. Crazy.

I'm so bored today. I went to Wegmans, and I totally love that place, but when I go in there for one thing, I can never ever find it. That place is huge.

I really really really wanna dye my hair again.
The hair color is sitting in my bathroom...

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Sat, 20 Jun 2009 03:45:54 GMT

So there is nothing like having a day where 3 different guys tell you that they don't want to date you, out of nowhere. And the guy you are dating, isn't really your type, but you're dating him because he makes all the pain go away.

I feel so mean for doing that.

But the good news is that I adopted that husky after waiting 2 days straight at the animal shelter to adopt her so no one else could get her. Her name is Roxy. And OMG is she my fav dog ever. She's about a year old and she walks like right next to me and she follows me everywhere and she sits in the front seat of my car with me :]]] only problem is... she doesn't pee outside, she waits until she comes in and goes on the carpet D: it's getting really annoying. But, today she went outside and I was so proud of her and I gave her a treat haha.

Still pretty sad about those boys though. Mark was like "yeah I care about you like a friend, but dating, no." Thanks. Lee "yeah I like you as a friend but you know I don't want to date you right?" Thanks. Robert "I'm waiting on Kim." Douche.

Roxy loves me. That's all that matters. I even got her a nametag :] it's black with neon pawprints on the back. It's cute. Like her. Hopefully in another week she can be trained enough to sleep in my room :]

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 20:43:49 GMT

So... Bella ran away. Stupid dog. We can't find her. BUUUUUUUT, I did find a beautiful husky that is going up for adoption on the 16. I really want her. She's sooooooooooooooo pretty.

I'm talking to this guy from Texas. He's super tall, and hot. Works for me. Kenny is still trying to hook up with me though. I just don't think it would work. He's just not on my level. I still like Robert, too. That butt-head just hasn't realized yet that I am his soulmate. So he's still with his gf. ~~Gay~~. ~~Gay~~. ~~Gay~~. Straight. Straight. Straight.

So this commercial came on TV the other day informing me that saying the word "gay" in place of saying that something is "stupid" is wrong and that I need to knock it off. Excuse me then, I'll be sure to change that to saying something is "straight." Douchebags.

Being "gay" is becoming such a fad.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 04 Jun 2009 03:41:22 GMT

So this boy that I used to work with like 4 years ago, randomly came into where I was working, got my number, txt me and now apparently we're almost an item. WTF. Amazing how life can flip around like that. He basically worships the ground I walk on. I love it.

He raises my ego. I love that too.

Today has been wonderful:
-Germanna approved me to continue my classes.
-My boi brought me dinner at work.
-I learned that people care about me at work.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Fri, 29 May 2009 03:23:53 GMT

So Robert told me he was getting online soon, and it's been almost an hour and he still hasn't gotten on. How gay is that.

I asked him if he even loved his gf, and he said "i do, but something about you amazes me a lot."

I dunno why I'm so drawn to him. Though, for some reason, only creepers are ever really TRUELY attracted to me. Makes me sad.

Fianlly he got on. Sheesh. Why am I so obsessed with him? He has a gf for pete's sake. D:

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 28 May 2009 04:11:58 GMT

So Robert is FINALLY camming me again. Yay!

When you make a wish, be very specific.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Wed, 27 May 2009 02:04:58 GMT

So this guy. Who is rather creepy. Just told me that he goes to my myspace all the time, and that his heart races when I'm around. It would be cute, but he's so not my type. I mean I would so date him if he would wax all that chest hair off, grown his head hair out, shave all that facial hair, get those tats fixed, finished or removed, talk like a normal human being, wore clothes that fit, and stopped trying to be gangsta.

Basically meaning, turn into a whole different person.

I doubt that will happen, but hey, I can dream.

When I asked God for a boy that loved me, I should've meantioned a hot guy.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Fri, 22 May 2009 13:22:36 GMT

Is there such a thing as puppy sedatives? Because Bella certainly is one hyper pup. The past few days I've been walking her, she's actually just been walking me...

So it's pretty sad that I sit online all day and no one gets on aim. If they do though, no one talks to me. No one talks to me on facebook. No one texts me anymore. This is becoming ridiculous. Since when did I stop existing?

Lee really pissed me off yesterday. His grandfather died and the funeral was yesterday, but I didn't know that. I sent a text saying that I couldn't wait for my summer classes to start so I would have something to do this summer. He text me back saying that he would rather be bored than be at his grandfather's funeral (because he really loved him.) So what do you say to that? I tried to be nice and tell him that at least his g-pa didn't have to worry about health issues or the economy and that he was free. That jerk told me that he knew I was trying to make him feel better, but to let it go. WTF. You don't tell someone that. It really hurt my feelings. I have to see him at work today and I am so not speaking to him. Jerk.

I'm so tired of people being rude to me. I already get it enough at Target. Stupid people. I'm so sick of stupid and rude. I don't even want to work today. I'm so tired of standing for 8 hours having to be nice to everyone. Whenever I'm actually in a good mood, people shoot it down in like, 5 seconds.

On another note, I've been frickin' trying to loose weight for a couple months now and nothing is happening. I went to the doctor about my thyroid just in case, but he was RUDE too. Surprise, surprise.

I really can't wait for my summer classes. I'm not going to screw up school anymore. I've learned a lot of lessons over the past year. School comes first, boys are dumb and jerks, working in a job where you are just a cashier is not how you make a living. I want to be the one that makes more money so people can't look down at me. Idiots.

I need a shower. I think I might straighten my hair today. And maybe even wear my contacts. That's ambition right there.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 21 May 2009 03:15:40 GMT

I feel like I'm in the middle of a calm.

Classes start in another week and a half. I feel like I'm getting back on track. I need to stay motivated. I got so lost in relationships that I forgot about me. I'm pretty excited though. So far this summer I'll be taking:

Horseback (again because it's so much fun!)
Psychology
Pre-Calc
Public Speaking

Then hopefully in the fall I'm taking:

Physics
Chemistry
Pre-Calc II
English
Horseback (man I'm lame...)
Drawing I

Spring might look like this:

Stats
English
ITE
Pharmacology
Genetics
Economics

I'm thinking about transfering to CNU, VCU or EMU. EMU might win. They have a great bio program. I guess I'm just going to stick with Pharmacy. I want money.

Money brings me happiness.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Sun, 17 May 2009 02:54:47 GMT

Soooo... I'm really tired of pregnant people. And the stupid woman who comes in target and buys like $1000000000000000 worth of clearance and then comes back the next day and returns it? Every week.

I need to get positive. I'm always so negative anymore. It's making my face breakout. Not good.

Today I learned about all the creepers I work with. I never knew I worked with so many whores :x ...apparently I've been living in oblivion about that.

...and I make really corny jokes. I need to stop hanging with my dad. He needs to go back to work. Stupid Adam did NOT call me back today. How rude.

My mom thinks I'm going to be married before my 5 year high school reunion. She is sadly mistaken. I only have like 3 years left. I doubt I can find a drunk enough guy that fast D: That michelin commercial with the puffy dude molesting the tires is a little odd.

Robert. Please stop confusing me. It's almost 11 at night and my brain stopped functioning 2 hours ago, mmk? I have to think slow this time of night.

Target

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 12:55:56 GMT

So at Target, I work at Guest Service and I cashier sometimes. I like it most of the time, but here are some things that are really agitating:

- If my light is on as a cashier, that DOES mean I am open. Don't stand there and ask me when I have no one in line if I am open.

- If there is a lane open and a cashier standing there, and I am busy filling bags in a lane, don't come up to me and proceed to put your things on the belt. I AM NOT OPEN. I'm busy.

- Don't come up to Guest Service with a $100 item, no receipt, say you paid with cash and then expect me to return it. Can't be done. Get over it.

- Don't tell me that the return policy is whack when it's posted on a large sign above my head, at every register and even sometimes around the store.

- Don't tell me Wal-marts is better, because Target is not Wal-mart. Go to Wal-mart and buy your items then. Or keep your receipts.

- It's really annoying when people come through your line and hand you 100000 items and say "Oh, I changed my mind about these." Make up your mind before you put it in your basket.

- If you tell me something is $20 cheaper because "that's what it said on the shelf" YOU ARE WRONG. Let it go. Just because you were really dumb and don't read signs correctly doesn't mean you are going to get that item for the price you decided you liked.

- Sale signs have sale dates on them. Pay attention to those. I love it though when you don't and I can prove you wrong and you get mad.

- Don't get attitude with me, because I can get it back with you and my manager will back me up.

- DO NOT TALK ON A CELL PHONE AT A REGISTER. It makes me want to punch you in the face. It's rude.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 01:52:24 GMT

I'm really mad at Wells Fargo. The Government has given them billions of dollars in bailout money to save their butts so that they could help the american citizens. Want to know what's really happening? Let's start with all those lovely forclosures. Have you noticed that larger more expensive homes go to forclosure faster than a small crappy house? That's because they want to make fast money. They are forclosing large homes in 4 months or less with only about a few weeks notice. Now I understand if you have just over bought your home and just got yourself into too much debt in the housing bubble, but the people I really feel for are the ones that have lived in their house for years and their income dropped. They can't help that, and they loose everything all because the banking industry along with President Jimmy Carter and many other idiots decided it was ok to loan to anyone. One sad story that I recall is that of a woman that actually tried to catch up on her mortgages. She paid the bank all the money they asked for to catch up and they turned around and took her money and still forclosed her house. She lost everything.

On another note, does anyone ever hear about what's going on in Dafur? No. Didn't we say that something like Rwanda would never happen again? Yes. Guess what, it's happening again.

mark.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:45:48 GMT

yeah. he hasn't changed. i was totally dead on about a year ago when i felt he wasn't all that great.

i need to find a boy that treats me like a princess and wants to go on trips with just me and buy me nice things.

thats what i want.

and my allergies are totally flarring up and its killing me.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 05:40:06 GMT

I don't love anyone.

Screw that shit.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 04:09:07 GMT

Oh today must be a day for posts. I mean, I have slacked off for the past what, year and a half or so?

Stupid boys. Why must they be so repulsive and yet so desirable at the same time.

I forgot what the whole point of this post was. As soon as I started typing, the thought slipped my mind...

I've been dreaming...

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 20 Dec 2007 03:46:44 GMT

I'm very confused. About one person in particular. I love him dearly, I really do, but it seems as though lately, everything may not be as perfect as I thought, and wanted it, to be.

He tells me his opinions about other girls, and how they look to him and such, and I do appreciate that he's honest, but some things he has said linger and hurt. It's gotten to the point to where I don't know whether he really means it when he says "you are the most beautiful thing to me" or not.

A lot of the time it just sounds like he's kissing up to me, to keep me around until he can find another girl to take my place.

Then again, comments I hear from some of his friends make is sound as though he completely adores me.

Is it even worth it sometimes? I love him, but I don't love some of his habits.

I try to change my appearence to better suit some of his tastes like long, dark, straight hair. He just never seems to want to do for me, minus the fact that he has let his hair grow out.

On another note, Enchanted is a rather good movie. I suggest you all go see it.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Mon, 17 Dec 2007 13:53:43 GMT

Evidently my last update was 29 weeks ago? That's a pretty long time. I went back and read an old LJ that I used to have, and it was pretty lame. I was a lame kid.

Of course, I'm not saying I'm not lame now, because I totally can be.

But what isn't lame, is that I tried my first mixed drink last night at my dad's job's christmas party. Vodka and some cherry stuff. It was mighty tasty. I even tried something that had vodka, rum, grapefruit and orangejuice... that was gross.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Mon, 28 May 2007 12:19:39 GMT

people are really dumb.

and i hate work.

and i want to go to the park today.

catz4eva2002@aol.com — Thu, 01 Feb 2007 03:05:41 GMT

people are dumb.

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catz4eva2002@aol.com — Wed, 07 Jun 2006 17:44:43 GMT

So it's the end of school (yay!) All my little senior buddies are leaving me :( (yay XD) lol jk.

I'm really bored.

Like today I realized, I really don't have a life. Nothing in my life is actually interresting, and when it is, I forget it.

Which reminds me... I still need to get my license >.>

Man I'm such a slacker >.< Ya know what I think I'm gonna do right about now? I think I wanna go through the computer and look at other people stuff on the shared file. I may seem nosey, but hey, I have nothing else better to do ^.^ lol

ooooo... and I got to see my baby neice yesterday for the first time (since my bro lives kinda far away) she's soooooooooo adorable. omg, I almost died from too much cute-ness. ahhhhhhhh!!! Wow... I'm an aunt, with 3 nephews and 2 neices O.o I feel so old >.